Today I am struggling. I have no ideas for Mombie Hacks on this Monday because I feel captured by my Mombie status.
Truthfully, what I can say is, sometimes this happens. And it is okay. Sometimes we cannot pull ourselves out of the darkness that is the Mombie state. Sometimes we just need to be okay that we are not okay, and know that tomorrow will be better. Sometimes we need to give ourselves a little grace. Sometimes even a lot of grace.
But what a challenge this can be, especially when we know there are others relying on us to be our best selves. Our littles rely on us for comfort, love, compassion, care, food, shelter, and everything else in between. We do not want to let them down. And our partners in crime, those people that support our children and us, well, we don’t want to let them down either.
But what if we have placed our expectations of ourselves so high that we cannot reach them? Today is a bad day for me. Today I am grumpy. Today I can’t seem to pull myself out of it, no matter how hard I try. I am so upset with myself for being grumpy. So upset I have been on the verge of tears all day.
So what if those who need us, don’t have the same exponentially high expectations?
Today our youngest son has a cold, with a low grade fever. So I’ve been trying to keep him comfortable, and cuddle him.
And today our other two children woke up on the wrong side of the bed (just like mama). There is a bunch of sass, fits, and attitude directed all at each other and at mama today. So I’ve given them grace, and tried to be rational and calm, despite my inner need to scream.
Last, but certainly not least, my husband, who has been working all day, swooped in to rescue us all. While Baby B and I hang out inside he’s outside with the other two, encouraging better attitudes and fun moments.
Not all days are easy. And certainly not all days can be fixed with a simple hack. It, of course, is important to try to be our best selves. But it is even more important to give ourselves grace when this simply won’t happen.
This grace is perhaps the hardest thing to accomplish as a mom, and even harder as a Mombie. But the grace will set us free. Maybe today I am a Mombie, with seemingly no relief. But today I am choosing to give myself grace, and perhaps, with that, I will relinquish my Mombie status after all.